[kower]

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I think once I have,but now I lost her.
I wanna kiss her.

[killcloud]

  回复: Do you have Any "SPECIAL" person in your live!

i never knew how much a person can affect another until i met this certain person in my life
i'm changed completely
though i know we will never be together but it really is nice to have a special person in your life

[istvan]

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hello guys!!!! please put atention........there are a lot of thing that happen this week... "there is a time line" I try to make the version 2.1 of the story alittle easy to read.....

[istvan]

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Ok,,, here is the version 2.1 of my story…. So, this time I’m going to try to make it a little more easy to understand ... and I think that this time it is going to be more or as long as the first one .!. ñ_ñ (by the way my friend who translate essays have a little of homework and I wanted to post it as soon as I can… so, it its all by my hand); ok.. lets go .!. ñ_ñ

To begin I want you to know what kind of person I am… this year I reach 20 years old, right now I consider myself as an OTAKU.. I love to watch anime, read mangas, play video & PC games, buy figures of the series I like most and go to the anime fests…. I’m very happy with my live, I like it just as it its..

.. there is something that always makes me sad and depress me every time I think about it…and that think it’s the fact that I’ve NEVER have a girlfriend…. and that hurts a lot.. but I used to do not think about that too much… I’ve never been the kind of guy who likes to cheat and play with the girls…when I like a girl, for me it’s a very important thing…

That’s why I think that I worry very much about the “problem!” I have…
So, to explain it as it is here goes..

There is a girl who comes into my life this year, her name xxxx ; but lets call her as “R”; ok, R is a very cute, and beautiful girl who likes to do cosplay, listen to Japanese music, watch anime and draw manga; she also is a very kind girl ..!. ñ_ñ

Well.. she has a friend who also likes anime & manga, I meet this guy at the “draw manga class”; actually we get along, and one Saturday afternoon I notice that the girl who I saw at the manga fest last December were his friend and she was waiting for him out of the class..

I can’t say that it was love at first view, but actually, the first time a saw her I though.. “what a beautiful girl 0_0 ” and I really wanted to know her.. and, that afternoon he introduce me to her… I meet her and after the manga classes we went to the park to talk about anime and to know each other….

The time pass, and WE GET ALONG very WELL ñ_ñ … I really begin to like her and every time I saw her I wanted to speak with her.. I tell this to a friend and he told me that the most important its to know her a little more.. just to confirm that what I feel its real.. and even more important let her know me as I’m…. ñ_ñ

The time goes on…. And we keep meeting at weekend to talk and just pass time.. one day she told me that the “SAKURA FEST” its coming and she ask me if I also could join her and some friends.. I said that there is no problem with that… the day of the SAKURA FEST she was wearing a beautiful red Chinese type dress KAWAIII !.! ñ_ñ

We enjoy a lot… and at there I meet ” L” who is R´s best friend ,so, to the next week happens as usually… with the fact that I ask to R her telephone # !.! and she gave it to me.. so, at the next Monday I give her a call And she were happy for me to call her.. we talk by 3 hours
… we talk about anime and other things…

the time goes on.. and we get confidence,, and start to talk about our last relations with other people and about of what we like and dislike…..

the 18,19 & 20 of May were the CARTAGO MANGA FEST and this one its big.. it takes all 3 days !! … There are concerts of anime music, cosplay, karaoke, and many things to do!! ñ_ñ…

at the Saturday I reach to the fest there were R & L… I say hello to R and to L.... but, then L comes and give me a big hug and kiss and say ITS BEEN SO LONG!! I got scare.. so I said HI ..ñ_ñ

We share and enjoy a lot at the fest… during the fest we take a lot of photos!! .. And the night the fest end we were at the street and I tell to L "give me your #, I do not want to lose you again ñ_ñ...” she said "oohh yes here!! I really will like you to call me"....( I think I did this just cuz I saw her as the good friend that she is..)

The day after the fest I was at MSN and R log in… I wanted to ask her about a disc I gave her, so, at the msn I said " hi,!, look could I ask you some thing??" …and when I were writing about the disc she said.. "do not tell me!! You like L and you want me to help you with that"…

I get in shock... and I really did not know what to say...and and...and I said "yes, who tell you that"... R said "jaja I suppose `cause L it’s very cute and I guess that you will like her" ...

I really have to say that I don’t know why I said that!! … So, I keep chat with R and thinking about how to fix this out.. And the part that really kills me its that almost at the end of the conversation she told me "hey... once you to be with L ... please..please!! Do no forget about me!! onegai shimasu" and I get in shock again...
because I do like R and all this time from the day we meet I said that I will not tell her anything about it because I wanted to know she a little more and more important I wanted to she know me as I am.....

And I begin to think that "could be possible that R likes me? and she did not tell me anything?"… that’s what I begin to think after she told me that do not forget about her..., after she told me that we log out and I get very confuse about what to do....

So, 2 days later I log in to the MSN and R were there... we begin to talk and I noticed that she were a little.... mmmm sad or trouble... I ask her about it.. `Cause I do worry about her.. And she said …"no.. Its nothing…… here! Download this picture…. she begin to send me photos of me with L......

I insist "what is happening?? Please tell me"… she keep saying that there is nothing and send me another photo... so, she changes the "photo to show" at the MSN and put one of her with me…..

After that she tell me "I appreciate you a lot.. But I should save this to me" after that I did not know what to think... and I said….. "I think I know what the problem its…. but I fear that if I tell you and it is not the thing...” and R told me " what it is?” I said " a.. atashi wa.... atashi wa.. R-chan.." (we both have seen a lot of anime and I try to tell her that I love her in that way)

I’m not sure if she get it... but after saying that she tell me ..."do not say it .. BAKA!! "… and I say …… de..demo ,, demo atashi wa.. R-chan.....I do not know if I should let you know!!! After that she tell me.. SAID..TELL ME!!" and I could not tell her… so she said .." I do not want to talk about this anymore.. so, for tomorrow this will be forget.. so, bye" I do fell like the bigger idiot in the world......

After that I get very confuse and depress…. I talk to a friend about it and he tell me that.. it is not lost yet…

So, that happen at a Wednesday and I give her a call at Friday, actually I act as nothing happens, and accord to meet the Saturday…

The Saturday after manga class we meet and there were L with her… I say hello to them and talk and speak as normal as usual…

From this day on I begin to call L, and we talk about many things as usual.. I keep calling R as well...

[istvan]

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There its something you should know about the “timeline”

Today its Friday, June 08, 2007,

The last Monday I went by first time to R´s house.. as you read we share and enjoy a lot….

Yesterday’s afternoon, I log in at the MSN and there were L, I start to talk to her and I wanted to find something out… I tell her..
Hey, L, lets say that there is a guy who likes you, but you doesn’t know.. did you would like him to tell you..???

She tell me this.., “I will do not mind about it, but right know I will say not cuz right now I don’t want to be with anybody.. right know I want to enjoy anime and friends like you!! ”………. that’s what she told me…

All this time I begin to call L, and I notice that she is a very good friend to me, I found out that I see her in that way,, and that she see me in that way too..

what I used to fear most it’s the fact that if I chose one of them.. the other will be hurt.. and that’s something that I will never accept !! ´cause right now what I wish most its them to be happy and see their smile… that’s some thing that as a friend or as something else I wanted to protect…

[istvan]

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Yesterday I call R at night ,, we talk by 1 hour…. Tomorrow’s afternoon I will meet with R again….I’m kind of afraid cuz…I don’t want to lost her…….

you know...

what I usually do at night.. after watch anime… its go to the bed and stare and talk with my dolls (figures of evangelion, chobits….)
and tell them my dreams... ñ_ñ
And think of how wonderful should it be to be with someone who loves you.....

[istvan]

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AKATSUKIKAWA;

if you think that doesn´t let him know your true fellings its the right thing, what I tell you its to really think about it and be sure of that is what you really want..... also, in all my live I`ve never see that a girl tell a guy that she loves him... but if you ask me so,, I´ll tell you that I think that for me that should be something very cute...and something impossible to forget... ñ_ñ

and i want you to know that, it was hard to get and found it out... but as hard as it was now I can see that the kind of love that I feel for L is not as a lover.. I consider myself to her as Oni-Chan ñ_ñ ...

[istvan]

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by the way!!

if any of you need or wants more information just ask.. and please post your opinion!! ñ_ñ

[Kajin]

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作者: istvan
also, in all my live I`ve never see that a girl tell a guy that she loves him...

my first girlfriend confessed to me years ago. hottest girl i've dated up to date, relationship lasted 5 years.

[Kajin]

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Oh btw, please don't stare at pvc figures and talk to them... i have a shelve full of them, and no i don't do that.

Anyway, here's what i think. I read your little blog, all you been mentioning is "R". As good looking "L" can be, it sounds like you already chosen "R" already.

From my personal experience, if they are best friends (R and L), they will talk to each other about it. One of them will back off even if both do have feelings. Just hope you make the correct choice granted if you just want one of them to be your girl. I still think relationship is overrated, you are only 20. Play around, have fun, relax. Sometime you don't even have to say a word and make it "official". Make a move (if you know what i mean <cough>), you'll never know.

Main thing is have confidence. No girls likes wishy washy guys like the ones you see in anime/manga storylines. In fact, I'm reading I's up to vol.13, and I'm here going GODDAMMIT JUST F**K her already. lol... now all the females on this forum probably think I'm a pervert now, but that's just me when it comes down to relationships.